oh that cliched phrase. that simple statement. how it comes, to mean everything and nothing. to become at once aspiration,[alienation] condemnation. fuel the fire of destruction, desecration: consecrate me to ashes. grey, i am burnt to bits, smoke escaping from the cigarettes touched to more acknowledged mouths. fading before strongly lined lips and words that burn slowly into flesh like hot embers. fat fouled, i am feral. always try, but i am never tamed. spitting, growling, i am sadly never subdued; snarling backed into a corner. for me, there is never an escape. cannibalize yourself, eat this body till there is nothing left--[this is a lie, there is always leftovers, disgusting clinging bits that someone desperate always takes home, oh jesus we do not waste there are starving children in africa] and even then, bones are too much, too ugly, what right do you have to this space, who gave it to you, do you have a pass, why why why are you even here; what purpose do you serve.
tear. me. to. bits.