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an alternate journal to my main one...so that i can express both sides of me without scaring certain people or making others angry.

i like this survey, but it doesn't...fit in my journal. hence, i post it here.

I see: chaos, tangled.

I need: to fill voids gaping.

I find: hidden emotions in your eyes.

I want: to succeed, prove.

I have: fallen.

I wish: for simplicity.

I love: texas retreats.

I hate: retreating.

I miss: that strong net of family.

I fear: you.

I feel: sunken.

I hear: voices foreign.

I smell: smooth skin.

I crave: love.

I search: for something to save.

I wonder: if there is truth to your pledging.

I regret: those nights uncaring.


When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: last night, ironically, at darkling and his attempted seriousness.

Laughed?: yesterday, at the french boy who said, heavily accented, that i reminded him of one of his, past.

Cried?: last night, as fears came crashing down that daddy's dear words would prove true.

Bought something?: last week, inconsequential and wasted small amounts of food.

Danced?: long ago.

Were sarcastic? yesterday.

Kissed someone?: today, i'm sure. darkling.

Talked to an ex?: saturday night. he looked longing, but i felt dead.

Watched your favorite movie?: last week.

Had a nightmare?: last night.


A Last time for everything.......

Last book you read: Tell Me Lies.

Last movie you saw: The War.

Last song you heard: Hate Every Beautiful Day - Sugarcult

Last thing you had to drink: water.

Last time you showered: yesterday.

Last thing you ate: bagel with jam.


Do You...

Smoke?: yes, often, sometimes in chain.

Do drugs?: no longer, seldom.

Have sex?: for him.

Sleep with stuffed animals?: no.

Live in the moment?: always. though oftentimes the past seeps into present, and the future occasionally blares loud warnings.

Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: darkling. perhaps we are each other's dream.

Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes, falling out of sight.

Play an instrument?: guitar, hesitant.

Believe there is life on other planets?: yes.

Remember your first love?: ...yes. the glitterboy, who was a dream and a nightmare all at once.

Still love him/her?: ...yes. but i am no longer in love with him.

Read the newspaper?: yes.

Have any gay or lesbian friends?: several.

Believe in miracles?: yes.

Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: anything is possible.

Consider yourself tolerant of others?: dependant.

Consider love a mistake?: worst you could ever make.

Like the taste of alcohol?: dependant.

Have a favorite candy?: i do not eat such.

Believe in astrology?: yes.

Believe in magic?: you make your own magic.

Believe in God?: one, not yours.

Pray?: sometimes.

Go to church?: never.

Have any secrets?: locked deep in blue.

Have any pets: no.

Do well in school?: i don't go to school.

Go to or plan to go to college?: perhaps.

Have a major?: what i want: arts, anthropology. what i will do: business.

Talk to strangers who instant message you?: on occasion.

Wear hats?: kenneth's.

Have any piercings?: two in ears, one in navel.

Have any tattoos?: ....

Hate yourself?: consistently.

Have an obsession? two, three, four.

Collect anything?: scars.

Have a best friend?: Zen.

Wish on stars?: without hope.

Like your handwriting?: no.

Have any bad habits?: ......

Care about looks?: mine yes, yours no.

Believe in witches?: yes.

Believe in Satan?: unsure.

Believe in ghosts?: yes.

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